Marling writes: "I moved to Los Angeles to become an actress at 24. These are character descriptions of roles I have read for: 'thin, attractive, Dave's wife'; 'robot girl, a remarkable feat of engineering'; 'her breasts are large and she's wearing a red sweater.'"
The author as Prairie Johnson in a scene from 'The OA.' (photo: JoJo Whilden/Netflix)
10 February 20
In pop culture, women are often objectified and disposed of. But even when we’re not being victimized, the alternative leaves much to be desired.
moved to Los Angeles to become an actress at 24. These are character descriptions of roles I have read for: “thin, attractive, Dave’s wife”; “robot girl, a remarkable feat of engineering”; “her breasts are large and she’s wearing a red sweater.”
I stuffed my bra for that last one. I still did not get the part.
After a while it was hard to tell what was the greater source of my depression: that I could not book a part in a horror film where I had three lines and died on Page 4, or that I was even auditioning to play these roles at all. After dozens of auditions and zero callbacks, my mom suggested I get breast implants. From her perspective, I had walked away from a coveted job at Goldman Sachs and chosen a profession of self-commodification. She wanted to help me sell better.
